Just… like.

hack hack OH GOD AHFHGHGHGH

It hurts.

Hm.

It seems I have nothing to do.

I guess I should get off  XD

Hahaha lol nope. 

AND OH MY GOD

I heard Toby’s Dad’s friend died!?
What!?

God what is wrong with me it’s like..

it’s hard to explain but it seems I don’t even feel the bond I had with Toby anymore. That sounds weird but I don’t feel like I can just sit through a vlog and see whats up. I’m a terrible fan I guess.  It’s like I love Toby yes but I just don’t feel that…I dunno connection? You know, Toby will probably never meet me, and I’m okay with that, he helped me get through rough times because he’s funny and seems happy all the time. I know alot about him and I think, ‘I know like everything about you but you don’t even know my name or anything’. I suppose that’s the issue with me being a fan, you wish you could meet him but you most likely won’t. I mean, I live all the way in Flo—

What am I even doing.

Ah, it’s like no one else listens to me so I can just rant on here and not worry about, well, people being all ‘oh my god what are you even talking about’. You’ll read this, most likely pay no mind to it but I still like that I can post all this and let it off my chest you know?